So here is goes my second post...Most know we are LDS, yes I might still drink my coffee and I might have a problem with the Churches view on homosexuals ( a very important family member of mine is, who I love with all my heart) but all in all I still believe there is a higher purpose to us most religious people do. I do wander back and forth on the faith issue sometimes and believing that there is someone watching over my little family but I have been blessed with a daughter who I think still has some connection to that side and reminds me daily that someone is there. As Christmas nears we all get caught up in what we think is important- the gifts for our loved ones which we assume that the bigger the better and the more we spend the happier they will be. To some this is true they are not happy unless they have what is bigger and better or have what they "want" not what we "need" and yes I know I do not "need" more clothes or shoes lol:) but I too have been caught up this year in trying to buy my happiness that is until I had a 6 yr old remind me what was truly important about this season. As we were getting ready to make our Santa list, of course kids will write down the latest and greatest toys, my daughter told me she only wanted 3 things 1st was a musical jewelry box with a ballerina that spins, OK that's doable, 2nd was somethings else along the same line. But when she told me her 3rd thing I was speechless- "mom I want a picture of Jesus", after i got my speech back I said OK is that it, "yes I want my whole room filled with pictures of Jesus".What???? what 6yr asks for a picture of Jesus and not the new barbie.
After that I have looked at Christmas a little different what good would buying her all the dumb toys and clothes that she can only use till she out grows be, but a picture of Jesus that will stay with her forever. So I did just that I went out and got her the picture, of course I got the toys and clothes its me. I guess my point to this post is have we forgotten what Christmas is about, I know I did, even if you are not LDS and even if you don't believe in a higher power isn't this season about giving and "filling our rooms" with the reminders of what has truly blessed us then sharing that with everyone not just those we love. Its about trying to remember that yes its okay to buy presents but at what cost what are we really trying to show everyone that bigger is better and the more you spend that better off you'll be, hum that sounds dumb.
The reason for the picture and yes I know its not a Christmas picture is that this is the one that hangs in my daugthers room, it helps me remember that she use to be that little girl sitting on his lap maybe having him help her understand why she is the way she is and that she is going to be the one that is the driving force behind our family and our eternal faith. I am blessed to have wonderful kids that so help remind me that its okay to be me, not everyone is going to like me but that someone will always love me for the way I am and maybe if I fill my heart with what I love I will remember that.
